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in this moment ..
in this moment i feel him beside me .. he is much older than i remember
.. the world has held this moment so that i may concentrate on this feeling,
this intensity .. my eyes remain on the sky, but i can see him standing
behind, gazing past me .. it is so good to have him this near to me, i
fear that in a instant the feeling will be gone .. i know it will be gone,
and become so much more excrutiated that i cannot turn and hold him ..
like orpheus and his lover, he will become a pillar of salt in this instant,
this next instant .. and so i remain. he knows i can feel him. he moves
without movement, breathes without breath,
whispers silently. i feel him say i am here, we are together this moment lingers.. like the memory of a fragrance, like a lovers kiss this moment lingers my eyes are dark with the loss of you, my tears are tears of lead, as i leap backwards from my mind, the universe opens, and fenris howls at the sun. god is here in this sublime moment, he touches my back i touch you on your shoulder he
touches me on my shoulder and i shiver i know to tell you how much i love you, miss you and think of you i know save me from this life, i say, i cannot live it anymore, i want to be with thee soon, my friend, soon, soon and then we will be together for ever i
step backward from my body, looking for you, hands behind like gossamer
wings incased in iron, looking for you
lead and salt mingling in the breeze |
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